Post by Deleted on Dec 21, 2018 23:20:59 GMT -5
Herro peoples I just need to spill all my stress and worries out on here.
So, I started at a new school 4 years ago. This would seem like a long time but I have only made 1 friend. And this one friend pretty much we have nothing in common. The only time we act like friends is when she comes to hang out at my house. I need more than this. And my grades are falling rapidly. When I was the new kid, I was also known as the nerd or smart kid. Now I'm kind of lower than average. I am also having problems with sleep and lose focus all the time. I also worry about pretty much nothing. Like, I'll be at school, and worrying about my dog being thirsty or roleplaying here. I cannot focus! My parents are very disapointed and l would be too. I have a report due in 3 weeks and have not even touched it. I always have been planning a time to do it, then, when it's time, I worry about my best friend getting stuck in traffic and call and text her the whole time I was supposed to be doing the report. I constantly have nightmares about the tiniest things, too, and wake up sweating. (If I even do fall asleep.) I am getting yelled at by my parents, about hygiene and homework and school. This increases my stress and I just want to scream. I hide away in this place and just want to stay. I am always finding a way to tell myself I'm stupid. The only things that I feel rush through my brain are insults for myself and to yell at my parents. I just shove everything else away. I plan my life out, and shove it into the corner when my planned out day comes and spend it lying around and feeding myself junk food. That is all I do.
That was me just saying everything bad about my life. My life is better if I put the good things in. Thanks a lot for reading my junk.
So, I started at a new school 4 years ago. This would seem like a long time but I have only made 1 friend. And this one friend pretty much we have nothing in common. The only time we act like friends is when she comes to hang out at my house. I need more than this. And my grades are falling rapidly. When I was the new kid, I was also known as the nerd or smart kid. Now I'm kind of lower than average. I am also having problems with sleep and lose focus all the time. I also worry about pretty much nothing. Like, I'll be at school, and worrying about my dog being thirsty or roleplaying here. I cannot focus! My parents are very disapointed and l would be too. I have a report due in 3 weeks and have not even touched it. I always have been planning a time to do it, then, when it's time, I worry about my best friend getting stuck in traffic and call and text her the whole time I was supposed to be doing the report. I constantly have nightmares about the tiniest things, too, and wake up sweating. (If I even do fall asleep.) I am getting yelled at by my parents, about hygiene and homework and school. This increases my stress and I just want to scream. I hide away in this place and just want to stay. I am always finding a way to tell myself I'm stupid. The only things that I feel rush through my brain are insults for myself and to yell at my parents. I just shove everything else away. I plan my life out, and shove it into the corner when my planned out day comes and spend it lying around and feeding myself junk food. That is all I do.
That was me just saying everything bad about my life. My life is better if I put the good things in. Thanks a lot for reading my junk.